I see a near Revival!

Wednesday, June 20, 2007

♠ 12:04 AM

you said what you had for me is undying love,

that you showed me through the cross.

HEY HEY!!!

One lovely week or holidays have passed me by!
BUT i made something GREAT out of it.
it was a packed week last week.

on Monday,
we went back to Dhobby Ghaut church to prepare some stuff for the costume party.
we went back rather late, and i still remember i had not pack anything for my trip that was the next day.
heh.
the next day Mel and I went to Peck's house to prepare the food at eight plus.
it was fun, fun and MORE FUN! hahaha!
then we decided we should have some cooking thingy one day. heh.

then i had three whole days of boring activities on the ship!
i practically had nothing to do!
BUT, i learnt how to play manjong properly! hahaha.
My sister, Cousin Shannon and i were like roaming around together.
cause my sister do not gamble and the both of us(Shannon and I) are underage!
heh.
so, it was NO FUN at all!!!!
however, what took my breath away was the magnificent view!
it was breath-taking!!

RED RAIN!!!!!!!! on the weekends!
it was a full, happy and mind-blowing time there man!
although there were same songs and same sharing for both days,
the things felt and learnt is totally different. (:
however,
i was regretful for not being able to go for the prayer meeting on Friday.
cause i came back on that day and could not make it in time!
moreover, i was too drained to go.
my lost! ):
and and!!!! ZANETA came on Saturday!!!
you have no idea how excited and happy i was when she came okie!
she even wore black with us! heh.
ZANETA CHER, thanks for coming! (:

that's just a summary of what happened for that week!
I'm shock at how fast time fly.
(:

i have found someone that i look up to right now.
she made me realise what a person i am.
and she was the one who introduce this family to me.

upon knowing her encounter,
i came to realise how self-absorbed a person i was.

i was only thinking about MY pain, MY friend, MY happiness and everything else that concerns me the most!
i neglected my family.
i failed to see what they need of me.
i failed to provide for them what they needed.
all i do was ask from them, RARELY giving.
i am always putting myself first!
like, when i am sad, i would start thinking why isn't there anyone to comfort me?
stuff like that!
i EXPECT too much from people!
so much that i hate myself for thinking that way!

SO,
i hereby say i want to change this horrible point of mine.
and everyone who reads this shall be my witness!
i will give my very best!
to my family at home and my family in church!

THERE IS NO MOUNTAIN I CANNOT CLIMB!
with God, everything is possible (:

I've been broken; I've been beaten,
feels like i am going to disappear!
this detour, i have taken,
left me soaked inside with fear.
we choose the world we live in, we make our own way!

"a sentimental person can NEVER go far in life,
because he keeps holding on to the past!"

i hope for you to come church with me!
cause, it is only then that you will understand and know what great love i am experiencing!
you are so dear to me that i don't want you to be alone.
just like you,
i don't have much friends and it was till i went church that i found lovely people.
they taught me so much!
and i received such great mercy and love that i don't want you to miss out on.
will you give God a chance to speak to you?
will you give me a chance to show you the joy of friendship?
i suck with words, especially compared to you,
but i know you know that i truly want you to feel all i am feeling for yourself.
cause this God that you believe it wants to show you something so much more!
because you have believed in Him for all your life.
He wants to speak to you.
i am the only who did not spend time with you all,
i am sorry.

as helpless as i feel right now,
i will still have faith and smile through!!!
cause i know God will work his way through your heart.
just open it up to Him.

God bless,

I sing to you:

I had no time for you,

I called you only when i needed you.

BUT YOU,

you still want me;

you're still here with me!

TAGS!!!!!!!!!!!

CRYSTAL : hahah!! yeah yeah, i shall do that "kimchi! Wahahhahaha!" thingy some time! hahaha. the feeling must come you know. hahaha!

GAYA : thanks gaya, i take that as a compliment. but i will do it not only when all else fails, but what He wants me to! hahaha. am i annoying you?! heh. idiot, what happened to your phone? aren't you going to see my face so i can return you your cash?! hahaha.

SHUWEN : YES!!! i updated! hahaha. good rightt? come on, applaud for AME! hahahah. yeah, i will ask the rest out too! thats if they want to join us rightt? hahaha. ((:

FAIZ : hey!!! thanks ahh!! see you sround school ya'll. heh.

ZANETA : i love you too dear! heh. thanks for comign on Saturday! ((:

Monday, June 11, 2007

♠ 10:44 PM

HEY!!!

hahaha, i know you want to say my blog is as good as dead,
but NO!
it is alive once again! hahaha.
i was just too busy and caught up with too much things.(:

count your blessings, not your sacrifices.
most people would gladly raise their hands and agree with me when i say,
"easier said than done."
hahaha!
everyone would face this point in life;
where you find it so hard to move on from where you fell;
from where you gave something up.
but, some part of us know that when we give something up,
something much more will be blessed onto us.
however,
human nature comes it!
we wallow in self pity and preach to ourselves of how painful we are with what we have lost.
would you sometimes regret what you've given up?
would you start thinking you 'shouldn't have'?
honestly, i will.
hahahahah! so you might be thinking what's my point for saying all these rightt?
heh.
my point is,
sometimes, we have to see the BIGGER picture.
we are always standing so close to all our problems, lost and regrets.
but, lately, i learnt that counting your blessings is so much better.
cause when you really count them(blessings),
you'd find that you didn't lose anything at all.
(:
the Lord is good.
you sacrifice for him, He would bless you back a whole lot more!
(: agree?

"When I'm weak, then I'm strong!"

Through these weeks i've learnt a lot.
so much that i feel that i'm too flooded with new knowledge.
(:
sometimes, i feel so comforted that i am not the only one feeling bad about something;
or not the only one feeling sad that i lost something.
for example:
compare someone who has lost someone they like, and someone that has lost someone to death.
do you still consider yourself poor thing when you lost some thing you think you 'can't live without'?
the truth is always ugly.
but when you face it, your life is BEAUTIFUL!

God bless,

i wish you could hear my cries,

and read my mind.

then you know why!

TAGS!!!!!!

JOYCE : HEY HEY, my fello friend! hahah. i know you miss me.((: -winks-

DRAKE : hahah, my exams are over!! and YES, we can start going out once i am back from sea!!! hahaha(: by then, we can share HONEY MILK TEA AGAIN!!! hahaha.

K : hey!!! hahaha, whats a cheespie?! hahahah

CRYSTAL : heck the aligment la. i like it! hahaha. i didn't say you cannot read what i type to huiru what! hahah, read la. its for you to read also! hahaha. anyway, KIMCHI!!! hahahah.

SHUWEN : hahahha, cause i want to tag ma! then must ask on Karmun's blog! hahaha. heck those nonsensical people la. hahah. just PUT BACK THE TAG BOARD MAN!! hahah, and PLEASE, can we go out?!?! i miss irritating you and seeing your face, how how? hahah. COME OUT YA'LL!!!! hahaha.

SKYE : haha, i will see you soon kiddy! hahah, miss you too!!! ):

NICOLE : NICOLE AU!!!! hahah, i MUST see you some day soon please!!! where is your face? hahah. i know i am the one busy la. heh.((: love you!!!

KEEEEM : KEEEEMM, I MISS YOU TOO!!!!!!! ): telephone talks sooon. heh

ZANETA : hey hey!!! my blog is not more dead okie! hahah. i made it live once again!!! hahahaha. eh, lian jie, see you soon wor! hahahah. ((:

Friday, June 01, 2007

♠ 10:53 PM

Beautiful Lord, Wonderful Saviour,

I know for sure all of my days are held in your hands,

crated into your perfect plan.

Its your call, not mine!

first thing first,
AME DO NOT TAKE SIDES!
thanks for your kind understanding people,(:

this time,
it is REALLY your turn to hold things with your hands.
i can't lend you mine anymore.
as much as i want to lend you, i know i can't.
because i love you too much to see you crumble once again.
please forgive me!

Yes K, i did ask you to trust me when i say Nicole will talk to you,
and forgive you.
but, i did tell you also that you HAVE to give her some time!
you HURT her!
YES, i know you are hurt too!
i am not dumb!
you cause the hurt to both you and her.
Nicole was stubborn for not forgiving you, i have to say.
but, is she wrong? she is not right either.
K, she LOVES you that's why she WANTS you to learn!
and instead of thinking about how to make things better,
you went and said those hurtful words to her.
if you were in her shoes,
you would have gone mad!
come on la K, she IS your best friend.
the both of you are like inseparable twins!
how can a sister discard her own sister?!
one thing you did wrong here,
lack of patience!
but K, you're still my friend.
like i said, we forgive you even before you admit your mistakes.
so, its time you LEARN from your mistakes and not only ADMIT them to us.
get what i mean?

Nicole, i know you are hurt and want to cry as badly as i think you do.
you don't to deny or admit.
i just want you to know i am here!
i don't care about what is happening in between you guys,
I WANT and NEED TO SEE MY NICOLE!
why jeopardise everyone friendship with you just for ONE SMALL issue?
yes, i consider this small.
cause it is solvable.
it was you who walked through with me and ask me to go back to God.
why leave me now? why leave when i wanted to scream to you about how happy i am?
Nicole, you're not alone!
i will NEVER let you be alone. understand?
as much as i understand why you are doing this,
i want you to know that if you don't tell K where exactly is her problem,
she will NEVER know.
that's why God gave me you, so that you can point out my mistakes and i can point out yours.
together we change for the better, no?
you know my phone is useless, i can't hear phone calls.
but let me tell you, no matter what, you can call me and talk to me!
i want to be there for you too, you know?(:

okie!!!
everyone is entitled to comment!
but first, i would like to say something!
AME IS NOT PERFECT!
and so, do feel free to scold me if you disagree with something,
i would really take your correction! (:
the tag board is there darling.
However,
i also want people to know that don't TEST your friendship!
if you don't have trust in yourself, don't blame the other party.
its easier to blame, i admit.
but in the end, who is the one hurt? you tell me.
don't hurt yourself by hurting others anymore,
listen to this.

hence, the outside of this issue, me,
is going to end my comments here.
seriously, EVERYONE is entitled to opinions.
i wouldn't scold you or get angry, (:
no worries ya'll! ((:

-END-

i was just wondering when will our dear SHUWEN do something about her tag board?

ahahaha!

i find it so hard to read but not able to say anything!

hahaha!

Nicole's blog also what, so much of tag board?

hahah! (:

went out with Rachel today!

heh.

i was practically half dead today la.

slept for about three hours only and i was mentally out while talking to Rachel.

heh. that's why i went home and slept my fill!

heh.(:

Tomorrow is a beautiful day,(:

When the music fades, all is stripped away.

and i simply come.

Longing just to bring something that's of worth,

that would bless Your heart.

King of endless worth,

no one could express how much You deserve,

though i am weak and poor,

all i have is Yours, every single breath.

beautiful song, really.(:

i do hope all of you have a wonderful weekend.

God bless,<3

Through the storms and raging seas,

i will never be alone.

When my hope seems our of sight,

i know You will shine Your light.